MySpace. Relationships. And Drunks.

So. Xanga.
Yeahh.

I'm pretty sure that these things are out of style now and that MySpace is the best thing in the world.
MySpace is an addiction, as was Xanga.

Maybe i'll be cool and just post xanga blogs knowing that no one will read them. Just because people don't read xanga sites anymore.

But heres a little update on me.

Just within the past few months, I got out of one relationship and then got right back into another one.
The one I got out of though was just something that I dragged out holding onto old memories and feelings that were no longer there and would never be there. I wasn't happy. And I didn't like the way things were going.
That boy, is no obsessed with me and it doesn't flatter me at all.
Its more like an annoyance that I can't do anything about.

This new one.
Is something that so far I am enjoying but we're having complications. With the way we are.
And the way we see things.
Things in are eyes are completely different and to one another, they don't make sense.
But he still manages to make me the happiest I can be right now.
He is amazing.


At this current moment. There is a room of drunks talking about MySpace.
Laughing loudly.
Speaking loudly.
And its not fun at all.
Annoying is what it is.

Life is life. And i'm still not sure how I want to live mine.

You people are gay...

You don't comment..
I hate you.

I'm done..

I've decided that i'm not going to shut this site down, but i'm just not going to update or use it at all..

If you wish to contact me over the internet you can either go to my myspace

www.myspace.com/x_suicidalxromance_x

Or add me on msn, aim, yahoo, or icq

OMGLorrin@aol.com  <AIM, Yahoo, MSN

307-404-181 < ICQ

Thank you and goodbye

I don't know how to feel.

I'm confused.

I.. want to leave this place. But I can't.

I'm sick of everything and everyone.

I can't handle this anymore.

And most of all.. I miss him more than anything. I need him.

I can't keep living like this. I want him back.. here. Now.

"Black Orchid" Blue October

Have you ever been so lonely
there's no one there to hold
just pull me in or disown me
and then
climb inside
my arms are open wide
have a look inside

It is not that I am scared to learn
just why I'm empty inside
just hold my hand to show some concern
if I live or die
My eyes are are open wide
help me look inside

Singing

I hear the water drip from the faucet
it's sweetly falling into
who knew
I'm gently closing the closet
and I fall to the floor
and crawl to my room

the thought of ending it soon
just let me sleep in my room

hear me cry...
cry
cry
cry


No, I hear a knock at the front door
Don't come in
I try to look at you but I can't stop shaking
leave me alone just go away
Mother I'm soo scared
I'm so scared

An empty bed but all of my sheets
are gone
they're wrapped around me in dear
all is quiet but the drop of my gun
'cause I...
I want to belong to someone
but maybe life's not for everyone.

Everything... Is gay.

I'm confused and don't understand why things are happeing like they are. I can't stop crying about it.

Something really needs to happen this summer. Its crazy and is most likely not going to happen but I need it more than anything. I would pray, but praying never got me anywhere before. And God, in my eyes, doesn't exist.

Xanga is getting to be pretty gay, I may follow in Jordans footsteps and just shut it down all together. I don't know.

My grades have all dropped drastically. I can only miss one more day of school, if I miss more, I'll fail the nine weeks. Everyone is driving me crazy.

I drew Kyle a picture, it was very cute. ha He gave me a kiss for it. =) He's so adorable. haha its cute.

Ahh I don't know what else to type. Thats pretty much everything thats going on.

Oh. And If Mr. Kiefer Watson says one more asshole thing to me, i'm seriously going to punch him in the god damned face. Fucking jerk.

<3 Lorrin

I don't know. I think Cory Baker gave me mono. God Damn that Cory Baker. I drank after him.. even though I knew he was sick. But still.. grrrrr. Fuck.

I was supposed to be staying with Steph tonight. I dont' think its going to happen. Damnnnnn.. everything sucks right now.

I don't know.

I have no life. Spring break is here.. and nothing for me to do. Screw it.

Goodbyyyye